I have a dream
Later, a handsome young shirtless man threw himself at me behind a soundstage at an undergound party, and I caught him. I even went as far as sucking his cock, but he was obviously drug affected, and not remotely hard like my dream cock.
I went as far as I was willing to go on the cold hard concrete in view of the people working the sound stage, and told him I'l like to continue on carpet, and he asked me home with him. I took a moment, cos I was more curious than turned on, and said "Sure." But then he couldn't find his backpack, and I wondered how much it was worth hanging around for some very drug fucked guy with brewer's droop to possibly get his shit together or rethink his proposition, and went to sit and work out what I wanted to do, instead of following the agenda of some man who had a great body but who hadn't shown much tenderness. He didn't tell me his name, he kissed roughly with biting teeth, and I could have had the same experience with a shaved gorilla.
My best friend gave me a lift home in his taxi, and I couldn't help smiling thinking about the morning's dream. He called me on this, so I told him I'd dreamt of sucking a very hard cock that very morning, in contrast to the limp effort tonight.
"Who's cock was it?" he asked.
" It doesn't matter who it was" I said, "what matters in the dream is what they represent."
"Was it me?" asked the overconfident bastard.
"Like I said, it's not about who it was, but what they represent", I replied, as the cab pulled up at my stop.
"I love you too" he beamed, and I was happily relieved he had taken this well.
Hey, it's just a dream, and my rational mind knows he's a sister to me, but it's nice to think that my subconcious thinks I'll be making love to a physically appreciative (ie rigidly erect) guy who is my friend. Obviously, this will not be another queen as "femme" as me, and my subconscious was just using him or his name as metaphor or a pun or something ; )
But there must be a happy medium between friends who talk with me and give me high quality intelligent human communication, but to whom I am sexually off limits, and guys want sex with me but communicate no more than horny shaved apes.